Is Abundance Work or Play?
I manifested a few major abundance opportunities to myself recently. But, did that make me rich? No.
In the face of my expansion, I became terrified. My nervous system became severely unregulated. I couldn't sleep. I was doing the same calculations over and over, filling up pages with these new, strange numbers and trying to understand what they might mean for my life. I was the opposite of relaxed. I was the opposite of rich.
I was unsure about one of the opportunities, but I said yes anyway. After learning more about it, I decided it wasn't for me. But when I tried to pull out, they were bummed, so, guiltily, I stayed. I justified it with those big numbers. But every moment with that project felt like a weight. I knew it wasn't abundance to stay in the opportunity, no matter how much money it was. True abundance is a FEELING and I wasn't feeling that feeling in this collaboration.
I also got the opportunity to go on a two week trip with my family next month. Well, let me tell you, I have been tossing and turning, looking up the international time zone differences, to figure out how I can both go on vacation and keep working. I'm a work-a-holic. I started working when I was 12 years old and I never stopped. I worked holidays, I worked late hours, I worked weekends, I worked multiple jobs at a time - yet I never had enough money. I never felt like I could take vacations, even after I was financially secure, because the feeling of scarcity was alive inside of me.
When my family vacation was first scheduled, I thought I'd have to work because I simply didn't have enough money not to, but now, I felt that I make too much money to miss out on it - it's a trap either way.
Can you see how me wanting to work from both poverty and riches was the same fear of scarcity? I have such a difficult time letting go and trusting that universe is going to have my back. I have the idea that I create my abundance, so my time and my hard work is tied directly to it, but that's not true. My higher self is in charge of my abundance. My higher self has given me all these opportunities. The more I have trusted in the divine to take care of my finances for me, the more opportunities I have gotten. So deep down, I knew that clinging to my "work ethic" wasn't actually doing me any good with regards to Getting Rich Quick.
When something is truly out of alignment, I want to see that and honor it so that I can manifest an aligned reality. So I finally pulled out of the first opportunity, two weeks after I said I wanted to initially. And secondly, I told my job that I'm taking a vacation and I'm simply not going to be available for two weeks. I was worried what my coworkers would say, but they were all thrilled for me to finally take a break.
I believe in following this feeling of relaxation, comfort, ease, and having my needs met. I believe that when I take the time I need, I will be rewarded in TRUE ABUNDANCE. I also believe that feeling the state of TRUE ABUNDANCE will literally lead to more financial opportunities. I know I will have access to more success if I embrace the blessings that the universe has for me to relax.
My ego wants to fight me on this. "You don't have enough money yet!" But my ego doesn't even think any amount of money is "enough." I could feel scarcity no matter how much money was in my bank account. I made a deal with myself - will you have enough money to pay your rent? Yes. Ok, then you can have a vacation. It's good to remain somewhat grounded as we learn how to follow the flow of true abundance and call in new opportunities so that we don't end up disconnected from our basic needs or the rest of the world.
Scarcity isn't actually real. It's a made up concept. The universe is infinitely ABUNDANT. So if it's not real, why does it exist? Why do people go hungry, have to work jobs they hate, struggle day in and day out to have their basic needs met?
On Earth, we've made scarcity real. It's a societal and more importantly, generational program that we run. How we view the resources we collectively have access to, how we cultivate them, and how we share or restrict those resources is a collective spiritual problem.
If you struggle with abundance, it's no wonder, because the whole planet struggles with abundance. Toxic systems have perpetuated conceptual, spiritual, and physical inequality. The struggle with poverty is real and in no way is it a result of anything that you have done.
Just like all the other toxic things on Earth, it is not your fault that you have been raised and indoctrinated in it. Once we acknowledge the system of scarcity that exists within us, we can then take steps to heal it. And as we say in UNICULT, when you heal yourself, you heal the world.
You can heal your connection to scarcity at any level. Obviously, we feel it most strongly when we don't feel like our basic needs are met. This process is going to look different no matter where you're at, but the more you can relax, no matter what level you're at, the easier it will be to shift into a higher vibration of abundance, money included. If you don't heal your relationship to scarcity and you still somehow manage to get financially wealthy, you will never truly be rich because you will feel the scarcity in your body no matter how much money you have in your bank account. True abundance is feeling safe enough to trust the divine to figure things out for you.
So, use every opportunity you have to relax. Sit outside in the sunshine, go on vacation, say no to opportunities that don't align. Connect with the feeling of flow and trust that the UN1V3RS3 can provide infinite ALIGNED opportunities when you align your energy with trust and relaxation.