Shame on You

What role does shame play in your happiness?

Let’s talk about triggers. Let’s talk about shame. Are you ashamed of who you are? Are you ashamed of where you’re at in life? Are you triggered by happy, wealthy, healthy people? These are important feelings. Let’s break it down.

The night before January 1, 2020 I had a powerful dream. In it, I was walking past a cafe and I accidentally bumped into an older white woman who was eating her lunch. My bump caused her to spill a little bit of water. I tried to apologize but she totally freaked out. She said, “Shame!” and she pointed at me. She stood up and kept repeating the word “Shame! Shame! Shame!” until she was screaming it, violently pointing at me. She screamed and screamed the word “SHAME” until her hands were in her hair and she was on her knees crying, “Shame! Shame!”

It was like I didn’t even exist. She was totally overtaken with the feeling of shame. At first she was trying to put the shame onto me. But it was so obvious that it was all her own shame inside her own body that had built up until that moment.

This dream helped me realize that the shame others try to put onto you doesn’t have anything to do with you - unless you already carry your own version of that shame inside yourself. Their attempts to shame you can’t work if you’re not already ashamed.

After I had this dream I came across a manifestation creator named ActivationVibration who REALLY triggered me. She was spiritual but she had blonde hair - maybe even fake blonde hair! She had fake eyelashes. Half her videos were her frolicking in the woods in skimpy outfits. It sure didn’t seem spiritual to me. It made me so angry. I wanted to shame her. I wanted everyone to know she was wrong. I was so mad I almost blocked her. But then I checked myself.

Why was I so angry? She was literally just happy and I was so pissed! Why did I see this as “not spiritual” when I knew philosophically that EVERYTHING is divine? I wanted her to be wrong so badly but I couldn’t really find anything wrong with her. So what in the world was going on?

My own prison of shame was showing. I was keeping myself in lack because that’s what felt right and safe to me. My own prison of shame was reflecting onto someone else’s positive experience, and telling me that they were unsafe because they weren’t also in jail with me. I had to unlearn this shame inside myself by understanding it better. I had to understand where it came from (childhood trauma, unjust poverty, lack) and then I had to allow myself to integrate it with love.

Another very important aspect of this feeling was this - because I could SEE her high vibration, it triggered me to know that I was capable of this same high vibration. And simply by witnessing her high vibe, it challenged my reality very deeply. I saw what was now possible for me. Seeing other people doing well causes negative feelings because:

1. I wasn’t already there and that felt shameful. My current reality suddenly seemed sad compared to hers.

2. I would have to let go of A LOT in order to become this expanded and I wasn’t ready for that big of an ego death. It was terrifying.

So instead of cussing her out in the comments or blocking her, I clicked “follow.” I watched my feelings every time she posted. Oh, I slowly realized…I was jealous! I wanted blonde hair. I wanted fake eyelashes. I wanted to dance around the forest in skimpy outfits. I wanted to be carefree but I was too full of shame to be as free as her.

Slowly but surely I allowed myself to live out these manifestations of perceived freedom. I dyed my hair blonde. I got fake eyelashes. I frolicked around in skimpy outfits. I felt free.

There is no duality in the higher realms. Every single thing you experience on Earth is completely and utterly 100% valuable to your spirit. Where you are RIGHT NOW is EQUALLY AS AMAZING as where anyone else is. It is EQUALLY AS AMAZING as any place you will be in the future. Do you understand this? It’s literally the only truth you need to understand because once you do, you are suddenly in the miracle timeline.

When we drop our shame, victimhood, and lack mindset for the present moment, we step into the dolphin abundance reality IMMEDIATELY.

Part of the reason why I chose to pivot my content to Get Rich Quick is because I know the value that this type of spiritual presence holds in the collective. Yes, it’s triggering to people - but there is wisdom in those triggers.

Remember, every single creator who posts the “wins” is also experiencing many losses in life. For some, this positive presentations of only wins might be inauthentic, but for others, it is a genuine testament to their positive mindset and the filter that they see their reality though.

No matter where you are right now, you can start celebrating yourself as your most expanded, happiest, most joyful, and carefree self. You can integrate your shame by holding it and loving it when it arises. You can celebrate your wins like crazy, no matter how small they are - and then you will be in the miracle timeline!